My rating: 3 of 5 stars
Received: Raincoast Books
First Published: February 27th, 2018
Publisher: Feiwel & Friends
Recommended Age: 13+
Genres & Themes: Young Adult, Abuse, High School, First Love, Investigation
Tormented throughout middle school, Ellie begins her freshman year with a new look: she doesn’t need to be popular; she just needs to blend in with the wallpaper. But when the unthinkable happens, Ellie finds herself trapped after a brutal assault. She wasn’t the first victim, and now she watches it happen again and again. She tries to hold on to her happier memories in order to get past the cold days, waiting for someone to find her. The problem is, no one searches for a girl they never noticed in the first place.
Whether you read dark stories such as this one, or not, it cannot be denied that they are necessary.
They are necessary because one cannot live their life pretending bad things do not happen, and these books are here to remind us that we have to recognize other people are not as safe as we may be.
And we have to remember to be careful.
But most of important of all, these books teach us that it is important to show empathy and stop blaming the victim.
Ellie was raped. Was she asking for it? Is that the first sexual experience she’d dreamed of, being brutality penetrated and passed from guy to guy like a sex toy?
No, it is not.
She was asking for love. She was dreaming of mattering to someone. She was reluctant to lose her virginity, despite her eagerness to be loved, and for good reasons.
But sometimes beautiful words have a way of touching the most vulnerable parts of us, and we believe those words, because we want them to be true.
T.E. Carter’s novel is affective. I felt completely invested in Ellie’s story, and quite frustrated both for her and by her at times. But whatever this book made me feel, it was never indifference.
It is realistic and that’s the scariest part. I don’t worry about vampires draining me of my blood in the night. I don’t worry about werewolves biting me either. And I certainly don’t worry about fairies putting a spell on me.
Those are not realistic scenarios. But rape is. Rape happens, and regardless of the fact that it happens all the time, it must be taken seriously every single time.
A good debut novel, but it drags. I read the e-book, and I had no prior knowledge of the amount of chapters it would contain, therefore every time I expected the chapter I was reading to be the last chapter, there was another one right after. It is as though this book has more than ten endings—it could have ended much sooner. I don’t believe we needed to know absolutely every step of the investigation.
A very good official ending, though, that’s for sure.
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